I want to disappear...

Went for 6/9 04' gathering yesterday
and it was FUN!!!
got to see my primary school classmates.
Some couldn't make it so only 12 of us turned up.
Annabel, Jia xin, Emily, Li Juan, Xinhua, Lizhong, me
Jian Hao, Dunstan, Yuan Jian, Aylwin, Jaf Zel
Alot of them changed, in fact all of us changed.
When I first see some of them i couldn't remember some of their names
only recalled it after hearing it.
We met up at bugis, had dinner at iluma and went to a pub in haji lane.
Called All about Eve met this guy named Remmi and he sings very well.
Jaf had a few shots of pure vodka cause he lost the game
and ended up drunk with Dunstan.
But still they managed to get back, we all had fun.
Everyone changed and we are all matured.
It was fun meeting with them. and it seems that we are going to have a chalet soon.

I AM BORED!!!!!
its all over ain't it?

Finished my last 'O' level paper today.
Feels weird, i am not excited about the hoildays.
I just feel like sleeping.
Although i am always sleepy, but this time i am really exhausted.
When to jack's place to have lunch with huixian, mummy, anting and diana.
the food is bigger than what we ate the previously.
Skipped dinner, caused too full to eat.

Well, i feel abnormal these days.
not feeling quite right.
Anyway, its the beginning of the holiday,
I've got tons of things waiting for me to do.
Got to meet up with friends, class chalet, interviews,
cut my hair, organize my photo album,
finish reading the book i started ages ago which was forced to stop because of the exams
Starting with lunch gathering with my tuition teacher and tuition-mates.
So i am going to be damn busy, and seriously broke.
HEAVY HEAVY HEAVY...
feeling heavy, wonder whats making me feel so heavy...

Celebrated VIVIAN'S birthday on thursday.
went to her house to have dinner,
did my homework,
watch Fann and Christoper get married
FANN IS SUPER BEAUTIFUL!!!
Cut cake, then went home at around 10 plus 11

Skipped Saturday programme yesterday 
couldn't wake up in time.
had dinner with my aunt at Thiong Bahru on Friday so went home late.
So had tuition at 1145 then met Michelle, Cassini, Hwee san for lunch
went Michelle's house to study aft that.
Then we went to buy some candles, sparkles and lantern to play.
but we ended up burning whatever we can find, box, lantern.
After that went to my grandma's for 2nd round
played the candles, my uncle found some container
we melt the wax and started burning.
Went home at around 12 plus
&
I AM SO FREAKING TIRED!!!
woke up at 6 this morning
gotta go to the airport to send off my aunt who came back
like 2 weeks ago,
but the problem is i slept at around 3 last night!!
I slept late not because i was enjoying myself
its because yesterday during the day,
some idiotic crazy neighbour was drilling whaterever they are drilling
from morning till evening.
then my sister who was sleeping till 3 ( i wonder how she sleep with all that noise)
woke up and found my study room covered with DUST!
everything was covered with this very fine sand, my computer, my books, my chair, my table.
So i had to clean up after i came back.
got to wipe, dust, vacuum, then wipe again
then by the time i finish its like 2 plus,
then have to take a shower, unpack my stuff then i can go to bed.
By the time i lie on my bed, i think i slept almost instantly.
Okay going to end here, i need to go catch up some sleep.
*YAWN*
Pictures will be posted when i get them from Michelle.
But most will be on Facebook.

他是我不想承认的存在，
却，
也是我无法否认的存在。

My prelims results were out
and i did really bad, my L1R4 is more than 20
Passed my english though, but the rest is a little disappointing except for maths.
My parents are out of town for 5 days
I AM GONNA MISS THEM LOTS!
Its been the 3 of us at home since yesterday..
I don't like that feeling when they left.
My sister said its because we are too used of having them around.
Well, maybe.
But i am seriously not in a very good mood,
I mean i have this weird feeling that i hate it.
& obviously i am bothered by that feeling.
it feels kind of lonely, and i hate loneliness.
I feel so stupid....idiot.

Coffee Bean @ EXPO is gonna be the new place to study.
so BYE bedok mac.
& I am soo gonna finish my homework.
oh and also
masked people are everywhere, its a FACT so face it.

I AM A LITTLE SENTIMENTAL TODAY.
Today stayed at home for the whole day.
cos got no paper.
I wonder how my friends are doing for today's MT prelim?
Hope they did well (:
WELL, abt why i said i am sentimental, its because many things that happened recently.
They made me think about many things.
THEN, they made me envy of everyone else.
& they made me feel a cocktail of feelings.

COCKTAIL OF FEELINGS
Ingredients:
half a cup of confused,
2 big spoonful of lost,
1 droplet of anger,
1 teaspoon of madness,
3 cups of tears.

Directions:
Pour everything into a blender and MIX them at high speed.
Chill them for 6 hours in the fridge
Ready to use after that.

PS: use small amounts at a time. Overdose could cause death.

Here i have a question for you.
When you know someone, and you assume that you know the person.
DO YOU THINK YOU REALLY DO?

没有人会是他们表面上看起来的样子，
但这事往往都不会有人发现。
是谁说，多面人就不是好人。
是谁说，他让你看到的他就是真正的他。
当你说你了解一个人，麻烦你再仔细想想，你真的了解吗？

还有
橘子说：
爱情里最残忍的暧昧，
是我明明知道我爱你，
而我们却只是好朋友

友情里最自私的胆怯，
是你明明知道你爱我，
而你还假装只是朋友。


不是时时刻刻，但难免有时刻
我们望着镜子，
问着自己
孤孤单单的我们，
真还能 再有被爱的机会吗？

Is there really another chance for love?